| CD1 |
| 1. / 01_Penguin Audio presents | not rated | 7:03 |
| 2. / 02_Most of us grow up with | not rated | 4:59 |
| 3. / 03_Part One | not rated | 7:00 |
| 4. / 04_One of the clearest memories | not rated | 6:43 |
| 5. / 05_The sense of ease and | not rated | 6:00 |
| 6. / 06_As I look back on the | not rated | 4:40 |
| 7. / 07_Chapter 2 | not rated | 6:55 |
| 8. / 08_But usually the very next | not rated | 6:24 |
| 9. / 09_Even back then I knew | not rated | 5:56 |
| 10. / 10_When I got my period the | not rated | 5:29 |
| 11. / 11_This was a huge break for my | not rated | 6:18 |
| 1:07:32 |
| CD2 |
| 1. / 01_Chapter 3 | not rated | 6:32 |
| 2. / 02_My only refuge was | not rated | 6:26 |
| 3. / 03_For my 14th birthday | not rated | 6:47 |
| 4. / 04_A week later | not rated | 6:48 |
| 5. / 05_It was a relief to have a | not rated | 6:06 |
| 6. / 06_In the morning my mother | not rated | 2:41 |
| 7. / 07_Chapter 4 | not rated | 5:50 |
| 8. / 08_So even though I was coming | not rated | 6:52 |
| 9. / 09_I nailed the part | not rated | 6:39 |
| 10. / 10_I was a good 15 years | not rated | 6:47 |
| 11. / 11_After a week my mom | not rated | 5:20 |
| 1:06:54 |
| CD3 |
| 1. / 01_Chapter Five | not rated | 4:44 |
| 2. / 02_That spring my mom | not rated | 3:21 |
| 3. / 03_In June after the NYU | not rated | 3:54 |
| 4. / 04_After our summer trip | not rated | 4:50 |
| 5. / 05_By the summer of 1990 | not rated | 3:19 |
| 6. / 06_Right before Christmas | not rated | 4:45 |
| 7. / 07_Chapter Six | not rated | 5:25 |
| 8. / 08_Heidi and I continued | not rated | 5:34 |
| 9. / 09_One night in November | not rated | 3:23 |
| 10. / 10_We started recording | not rated | 5:35 |
| 11. / 11_This period of my life | not rated | 2:26 |
| 12. / 12_Chapter Seven | not rated | 4:56 |
| 13. / 13_Now it makes perfect | not rated | 5:36 |
| 14. / 14_Before it was time | not rated | 4:10 |
| 15. / 15_The new chemotherapy | not rated | 4:10 |
| 16. / 16_Christmas and New Year's | not rated | 3:48 |
| 1:10:01 |
| CD4 |
| 1. / 01_Chapter Eight | not rated | 6:02 |
| 2. / 02_The more my career | not rated | 7:06 |
| 3. / 03_Unfortunately he and I | not rated | 5:26 |
| 4. / 04_Now I realize | not rated | 3:21 |
| 5. / 05_Part Two | not rated | 5:09 |
| 6. / 06_Over the next weeks | not rated | 3:11 |
| 7. / 07_The following journal | not rated | 4:32 |
| 8. / 08_Then in 2001 | not rated | 4:18 |
| 9. / 09_Three years had passed | not rated | 3:54 |
| 10. / 10_I drove home | not rated | 4:32 |
| 11. / 11_Chapter Ten | not rated | 4:48 |
| 12. / 12_So off I went | not rated | 6:46 |
| 59:13 |
| CD5 |
| 1. / 01_One summer night | not rated | 6:52 |
| 2. / 02_I avoided going | not rated | 6:16 |
| 3. / 03_After the show | not rated | 4:01 |
| 4. / 04_By April 2007 | not rated | 5:18 |
| 5. / 05_Chapter 11 | not rated | 6:33 |
| 6. / 06_I now started | not rated | 4:56 |
| 7. / 07_Then one day | not rated | 5:28 |
| 8. / 08_The next day | not rated | 6:32 |
| 9. / 09_Chapter 12 | not rated | 4:13 |
| 10. / 10_After I got | not rated | 5:35 |
| 11. / 11_In April | not rated | 3:58 |
| 12. / 12_Once I was on | not rated | 3:59 |
| 13. / 13_The publicist | not rated | 6:50 |
| 1:10:37 |
| CD6 |
| 1. / 01_Chapter 13 | not rated | 6:10 |
| 2. / 02_So over the course | not rated | 4:33 |
| 3. / 03_During the summer | not rated | 4:26 |
| 4. / 04_There are two | not rated | 4:08 |
| 5. / 05_In the weeks | not rated | 3:06 |
| 6. / 06_During the summer of 2009 | not rated | 6:21 |
| 7. / 07_As the year | not rated | 6:48 |
| 8. / 08_Chapter 14 | not rated | 4:03 |
| 9. / 09_Reconnecting with people | not rated | 3:53 |
| 10. / 10_The internal changes | not rated | 6:25 |
| 11. / 11_To celebrate | not rated | 6:54 |
| 12. / 12_Over the next several | not rated | 4:52 |
| 13. / 13_Afterword | not rated | 4:23 |
| 1:06:07 |
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